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I have been sheltered far too long and am finally able to prevail. Some old friends have scolded me for being so stressed; I admit my fault in that I tend to care more than I should. I lack the ability to not worry about certain things. Generally, when someone states: don't worry about it; my natural reaction is to worry. After all, it can't be helped on my part.



Or at least that's what I thought. So selfish to believe I was never the problem. Of course it had always been me; could that many people have lied to me just to be cruel? No, I must not be seeing something that is clear to them.



In response to this rather recent discovery I am putting my foot down. I shall alter my flaws as best as I can. Now please don't call me a fool, I am not changing my personality only the dark characteristics that have haunted me where ever I go.



I have lost many a friends due to my words. I overact without allowing a chance on their part. That is my fault; I can see that very clearly. I have also been called pathetic. Maybe that part is not so true; or maybe I'm too vain to accept people view me this way. I would do my best to avoid that illusion. I can see that I am cruel to a degree but honestly; how cruel can I be when I immediately or almost immediately ask forgiveness? I'm confused by my actions at times; but strangely they almost always turn out for the best.



I lost a friend that I met on this website due to me caring too much and making a big deal out of nothing. I hate that it happened; I miss him but I can see how it has helped me. However; I will not make any attempt to redeem myself to him. It is not my place anymore.







Have a magical day! :P